Before Our Date, I Decide To Change My Headlights // Nailpolish

 

Before Our Date, I Decide To Change My Headlights


Okay, I hear you as you

point out this avoidance, me

standing in front of my car, 

hood baited skyward, and blame 

me, sure, for choosing this 

second to switch the bulbs 

even though they’ve been 

my passengers for more than 

a week and cutting ties 

with my car’s black eye 

didn’t feel right until right 

now, thirty minutes past 

when we were supposed to meet 

at your place where you’ll roast

brussel sprouts and chicken how

I like it, how you know my taste

in wine and cheese and vegetables 

and that’s the issue, the knowing, 

your crafted observation

my friends keep calling care

but my throat started burning

the moment I pulled out 

my clutch, I should go, I think 

my lunch was sour, no, 

sorry, that’s my heart

-burn, no, it’s you  

calling, asking where I am 

and I’m about to lie, say 

I’m tangled up at work, 

that I’m still figuring 

out which direction 

to turn, but instead, 

I answer, admit I am 

outside, trying to

undo the dark. 

 

Nailpolish

My first trip to the nail salon

I choose Starry Starry Night,

dark blue flecked with various 

golds, while mom dawns 

her hands in Bright 

Gleaming Sun. “When I was

your age, we’d catch lightning

bugs in jars, watch them dapple

the ceiling, and then smash 

them on our fingernails 

so our hands would glow.”

On this mulberry night, 

the forest and fields glisten 

with fireflies, and I

only see hands. Floating 

hands playing peekaboo 

in front of my eyes,

hands lightly guiding 

my back to the sky, hands 

laughing as they squeeze out 

light. Bottles of lacquer spill

onto my windshield,  

evening drive turning

graveyard too fast. 

Shimmering under the kitchen’s

incandescence, her polished hands

present me pies, potatoes, thanksgiving 

cornucopia, death's decoration

always there, invisibly bright.

Madeleine Corley

Madeleine Corley (she/her) is a writer by internal monologue and needs to stretch more. She currently serves as Managing Editor at Barren Magazine. She's been nominated for Pushcart and Best of Net. Her work has appeared at Emerge Lit, Rejection Lit, Knights Library Mag, Plum Recruit, and more. You can find her on Twitter @madelinksi and wrotemadeleine.com.

http://wrotemadeleine.com
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